Pool

I want to be at a poolside.

Shut up.

I’m tired of this game. Finally realised I’m not really the kind of person who likes to dream. It was just my optimistic youthfulness. Now I’m old enough to get myself sunk in restless boring reality again.

Welcome back.

I’m natually an errand runner.

Sometimes I think as if my dream is to connect more people like a sort of Social Network Service while I’ve never had myself with a good sociality.

Schoolphobia

I want a day a week to remind why I have decided to continue schooling again.

Also,

I won’t curse myself for what I’ve done today. I shouldn’t. I can’t.

But making an apology to others is another thing. And I am willing to do so. And yes I will, tomorrow.

Quotes From Steppenwolf

“Poetic writing can be understood and misunderstood in many ways. In most cases the author is not the right authority to decide on where the reader ceases to understand and the misunderstanding begins. Many an author has found readers to whom his work seemed more lucid than it was to himself. Moreover, misunderstandings may be fruitful under certain circumstances.”

(Hesse. from “Author’s Note 1961″. Steppenwolf. Translated from the German by Creighton, Basil. Revised by Sorell, Walter)

Awake and Resolutions

Thanks to that I got good friends with their desires and some optimistic views, I think I finally viddy clearer again that I actually want to do what thrills me to do.

Guitar/ Heine in German/ Movies/ Music making/ London-whatever it means/ Tokyo-whatever it means/ Visiting Skagen/ Hug trees/ Photo shooting with the use of sets and lighting/ Make an experimental SFi film/ etc.

Ingredients

Curry Powder
Coriander, Turmeric, Masterd, Chilli, Cumin, Fenugreek, Fennel, Black pepper, Garlic, Curry Leaves, Salt

Pickled mushrooms
Mushrooms
Celery lamina
Onions
Vinegar and wine (I used apple cidre vinegar and cider this time)
Black pepper corns
Rosemary
Pickling spice mix
Salt
Water

Watercress paste
Watercress
Parmesan cheese
Garlic
Olive oil
Salt

Belgian endive and Roquefort Salad
Roquefort
Sour cream
Yogurt
Worcestershire sauce
Lemon juice
(Salt and pepper if needed)

Endives
Apples (or mushrooms and yogurt+lemon marinated raisins as substances)
Walnuts

Fever.

IMGP1363, originally uploaded by The.Nomi.

Maybe it’s my enigmatic super genkidesuness in these three days that weirds me out but I don’t know if this optimistic-ish, kind of motivational, almost very relaxed, free and easy sensation that I have is something temporal or that it would often come in my mind again. –I am somehow having myself in the very intensive excitements that make the way I move/think oddly uplifted and insanely cheerful.

WANT to make movies or at least something that I can perform whether it helps making my living expenses or not.

An absolutely stunning fact about myself for myself.

I’m an amazingly optimistic dumb, every where, in every situation.